Oh Jesus. This is bad bad bad. Bad time, yes. Bad situation, yes. Bad bad bad.
I'm going to crash soon. I only Latin and biology left. However my presentation for science was terrible, so there goes a nice 20% of midterm already. *nervous laugh* Not like I planned on getting above a -18 anyway. Latin; I can shrink my font as much as I want. I can put the whole put on my notecard, I will still fail.
I fail at everything. I got a 74% on my bio mini test, and I thought that was good. And I have a C in Latin, so my GPA has gone down. Which reason number 70000000 why I fail at life.
And my mom wants me to get out the house during the summer because I'm "there too much." AKA, "You're a loser with no friends, go away." Thanks, even my mom of all people doesn't like me. (suprisingly, I actually care about that.)
Whatever no one likes me. My grandma even thinks I should "get friends." HAHAHAHA. Yeah, I'm just unlikable in looks, personality, dependability, smarts. You name it, I don't got it.
Not even people I've never even met like me. I left for four days, and didn't get a single hi. SEE GRAMMIE, I'M NOT A PERSON PEOPLE ENJOY.
I should really stop posting. No one is reading. No one cares. Not even I care that all I have is me, and I don't want to be stuck with me.
Oh, Bianca, you break my heart when you write stuff like this. *I* care about you, I always read your blogs and I *know* that you are such an amazing person. I'm so truly sorry for any shit you're going through, you totally don't deserve it, but just remember that it has to get bad before it gets good...I guess.
ReplyDeleteI'm always lurking around if you want to talk about absolutely anything -and don't feel so 'out' when it comes to Veritaville. I second most of what you wrote in your previous post.