Today is Not My Day, Let's Try for 364 1/4!

I'm having a bad year.

Really, I'm getting along to well with the people at school.

And it's too late now. It may have been just one month, but I'll never be able to go back to constant pile of homework, projects, tests to study for.

Goodbye life's dreams.

And because I know no one is reading this (because I know the people who I've given this blog to don't check it, unless I pester them, and I could leave for weeks without them noticing I left at all.) I'm just going to say it: My parents are getting a divorce.

I'm not slightly sad.

I don't like my dad. He likes my sister better. He doesn't talk to me. He stole my money. I hate his whole family sans one first cousin. She was screwed over by my uncle, and Nonnie blames her mother. Well son of bitch.

Daddy dearest still lives with us. We can't move. We're all too poor.

Well we could move to the grandparent's that-I-like house, but they don't have enough rooms for me, my sister, my mom, and two cats.

Whatever. Four years till I graduate. Then gone with this bullshit.

Oh wait, I'll still be stuck here because it never ends.

And Eric and Nikki broke up.

Oh Hey, I have a Blog?!

It's been a while. If it was up to me, it wouldn't be months before I updated because of my oh-so-hectic social life. It's not up to me. My oh-so-hectic social isn't so hectic as it used to be. It's barely there nowadays. And I hate that. Almost as much as I hate school. Almost as much as I hate this goddamn town.

So how's school? It's the same education on the same topics as last year, but instead of learning about I'm relearning it with 678 other kids, who didn't learn it because public education sucks. And I feel bad for them, I really do. It's just as unfair to them as it is for me. At first everyone stuck with the kids they knew. Gradually they've begun to spread out. Not good enough to be hangout on weekend friends, but lunch buddies.

I miss my old life in so many ways. Though, I wouldn't go back to that school. I've moved on. I accepted that everything would be different from now on, and I'm glad all 2,500 of us agree- we hate this crumbling school.

I hate the education system in this county. Not just the public, the private too, but I'll talk about that in a minute. I hate that I'm doing everything I did last year. I am so mad at this other public school too. I wanted to use school choice and tranfser. "There is no room. No waiting list." They told me in September. Liars. A girl from Maine just transfered there. And I hate the private education system because it isn't any fairer. There is no amount of scholarships I could win to be able to attend one.

I wonder far too often what it would be like if I just stuck with going to another school. I wonder if I we'd still be besties, and if I would have never broken my tailbone.

Whatever what's done is done.

The end.